i'm going to rita's soon.

to get my free italian ice. with matt. duh. how else do i get places. :) so do you want to hear about last weekend? i knew it. so i went over my friend julie's dad's house. he lives in york. and we had so much fun. we played lots of board games. and watched movies and played rock band. (i sung. oh wow.) and we made pancakes and blared music. it was awesome and i really hope we do it again. so cheer has been alot better lately. before i was dreading practice sooooo much. but now, we are doing better. expect for the last night. but everything else i'm very confident with. and its amazing. and this weekend is mostly with matt. :) today i'm hainging out with him. until he has to go to rehersal and then i'm watching a movie with my family. saturday i have practice. then i'm probably going driving with my mom. and then to matt's concert. then sunday. i'm hanging out with matt again. i think all day. maybe. yupp. i know you love hearing about my life. next time, i will talk about something more conterversial. because i love debating. ask anyone who knows me. so yay. :) bye!

oh my god.

okay. i have this friend. who shall remain nameless. not that it matters. but okay. so she has this friend who is going onto the marines today. a guy who she has known for awhile. she has dated him, had sex with him. maybe. she could be lying about that. anyway. she went to see him yesterday. alone. (mind you she has a boyfriend who is super nice and doesn't deserve to be treated like this.) so i'm thinking she did something with him. because she is so still attached to him. even though! she said she wasn't going to. that she would feel too bad. but she did anyway. she has also cheated on almost all, if not all, of her boyfriends. and she never feels a thing! plus, we think she is lying to us. because of a story. but i'm not going to get into that. anyway, i just wanted to vent. and i know i should be saying all of this to her. but it so wouldn't sink in. plus, this isn't really my business right now. so i'm going to leave it to posting and venting to whomever is still reading this. thank you reading this, btw. bye!

so i wrote some of that story i was talking about. tell me what you think!

This was the moment of truth. This decided my summer. We were sitting on the very old family room furniture waiting for the decision. It could go either way. My mom is the softy so she could probably sway my dad but then my dad is a hard ass on his own. Plus, I had Kara’s parents to think about as well. And then they started to speak.
“We have discussed this very thoroughly.” It sounded funny coming from my dad because he had such a deep voice. “And we have some ground rules that you are going to need to follow if you are going on this trip.” Before they could even tell us the rules, I was jumping up and down hugging Jordan, my twin brother. Then my dad cleared his throat and we shot down in our seats. That’s kind of his mad call. So we listened further. “These are the rules.” He laid down a piece of paper that seemed a lot like a contract. “You are both going to sign this. If you do not follow the rules given, Jordan, you will not be getting a new car and Olivia, your cell phone, iPod and basically life will be taken away for the rest of the year.” These were some pretty tough rules but I knew they would be.
“So what are the rules?” I figured we should probably have a good idea of what we are signing up for.
“Good question, Olivia. The rules are as follows: you will call us every night and every time you get to a check point. You will give us a list of all the places you will be stopping. You will not pick up any hitch hikers or tell anyone where you are going. You will plan out every stop, gas station and hotel before you go on this trip. You will not be staying in any cheap hotels. Your mother and I will give you the needed amount of money but anything else is up to you to pay for. Are we understood?”
Jordan and I both shook our head vigorously. I was so happy!
“Oh honey,” My mom finally spoke, “do you know if Kara’s parents are letting her go?” I have to call her!
“I will go call her now.” I was about to get up when my dad did his “clear his throat” thing again. “Sign the paper first.” So I was right, pretty much a contract. I signed it really fast and then ran upstairs to my room to call her.
I picked up my very old cell phone, which I loved very much, and speed dialed Kara. “I CAN GO! CAN YOU GO?” She was basically screaming in my ear but I was about to do the same to her.
“YES! I’m so excited! This is going to be the best summer ever!”
“Agreed; so when should we get planning?” So that night Kara came over and we planned out the whole thing. I asked Jordan if he wanted to help but he figured he would leave it up to us.
“So we are starting here and ending in Florida.” She pointed to our state, Washington and drew a line all the way down to Florida. We planned to take about two weeks to get down to my aunt’s house in Florida and then stay there for about two weeks. And finally, make our hike back to Washington to start our senior year. We marked out every hotel, gas station and historical land mark just like my dad asked us to do. It turns out Kara’s parents wanted the same thing, so it kind of worked out.
We were up until three that morning planning stuff out. We ended up falling asleep with our heads next to each other with all of the information scattered around us.
Jordan came in at like eleven and woke us up. He didn’t mean to but he was looking at the plans and managed to crumple enough papers to slowly wake us up.
“Wow, you guys worked your asses off last night.” I smiled at our amazing work. “Are you guys done?”
“I think we are. We just have to figure out what day we want to leave. Everything is good from there.” This was the most exciting part to me; figuring out what day we will leave.
“How about Wednesday?” That was in two days! That was so like Jordan to pick such a soon day.
“Okay!” Kara decided she agreed with that day. I guess we could manage that.
“Alright, let’s go show our parents.” Kara called her parents and they came over with her little sister, who was a freaking genius. They were all seated at the kitchen table and listening intently while we showed them out information.
The whole time I was praying that they would like it. We had the best hotels and other than that we picked the cheapest stuff. We wanted to go to the local diners and see all the town stuff. Between all of us, we had seven hundred dollars. I mean we didn’t need much. Our parents were paying for gas, hotels and food. But we wanted to go places, see things that we had never seen before. Plus, we needed stuff for emergencies.
So we finally finished everything and waited for their responses. Of course my dad spoke first. “I think you guys did a fine job gathering this information. I appreciate all of the effort you put into this. I think I speak for everyone here when I say ‘Have fun.’” He actually smiled and I was so happy. This summer was going to be great.

i need help.

so here is what i'm thinking. i want to write a new story. and i'm kind of in the mood right now so i'm going to make this short. but i would like to know if anyone thinks this is a good idea. i want to have this girl and i don't know what her name will be yet. but i would love some suggestions. anyway, she is going to go on a roadtrip with her twin brother and her best friend. and in the midst of all the fun of the roadtrip, her brother and best friend end up hooking up. and leaving her to be the third wheel. and some stuff will happen to her in between. not sure what yet. but i will post stuff up here so you guys can tell me what you think. so can anyone tell me if they think its a good idea? be honest.

music makes the world a better place.

i got out of cheer way early. i love it! anyway to what i wanted to talk about. i love listening to songs i hardly listen to and finding lyrics i could die for. its so fun. so here are some lyrics i love:

there's nothing to stop us if it feels right then everything's fine.

so tonight we will reunite under the eyes of this summer sky to find what we left behind.

as she tries to maintain her innocence, it's her word against theirs. with everything that they've said, they've got her running from the few left that care.

i left my heart on your bed sheets not knowing what it means to be here on a plane leaving you.

everything's quiet when there's a thousand things to say.

and i'm trying so hard with all my heart and mind to make your life as good as you've made mine.

okay. so i'm done with that. but god. i love music. i love lyrics. i honestly think that they can save a person. because i think most lyrics that come from the bands i listen to are from their hearts and their personal experiences. (correct me if i'm mistaken.) but that's what i'm thinking. so i think to people who can relate to those words know that someone, anyone out there is feeling the same way they do. and that helps people. to know they aren't alone. but do you want to know my favorite part of music? the passion you can hear radiating through the singer's vocal cords. in one man drinking game by mayday parade. i can hear it. in any mayday parade song for that matter. i can tell that the band loves what they do and that makes me so happy. because i love the product of what they do. its amazing. well i'm sure you have heard enough about music. so have a goodnight and go buy mayday parade's cd's. okay? good. :) thank you for reading all of this. have sweet dreamssss.

i don't know what to do.

this is my day off school and i have nothing to do. expect sit. and think. which is a bad thing right now. because the more i think, the more i want to cry. i can't believe this is happening. and i just want to turn back time and make it not happen. i can't eat. i'm so tired and i can't sleep. i don't know what to do with myself. i just want to make it all better. i wish i had that power. but only god does. so i'm going to keep praying and hoping that i will be fine.

so tonight.

could be fun. i'm having a cheerleading sleepover at my house. and i hope everyone enjoys it. but i have to do a lot of cleaning first. which sucks. but you know what doesn't suck? mine and matt's six months is tomorrow! i'm really excited for that. half a year. so i'm probably going to be writing in bold for the rest of this blog because i hit a button and now everything is bolded. and i don't know how to change it back. oops. well i don't really feel like typing anymore. back to cleaning. bye!

quick post!

i forgot to add this to my last one. i really want to write a new story. any ideas?

i stayed home from school.

again. i really don't like being sick. like when i'm not sick, i'm always like "oh! i wish i was sick. then i could stay home from school." but it sucks! so next time i say that, someone show me this blog. please and thank you. :) so i wish i was more creative. like i like writing stories. but i hardly ever finish them. but i was thinking more like poems. i really wish i could. but they are always terrible. oh well. :) bye!

so i'm sick.

and its not fun. because i have cheerleading tonight. oh and a competition on saturday. so it sucks. but i guess i will have to deal. and work my ass off. yay. i need to take a nap. which i plan to do later. i can't imagine that alot of people read this. just matt. and creppy stalkers. matt made me a video. it was sweet. i love him. my mom asked me why i think matt is my soul mate the other day. want to know my answer? i said "because i can see my whole life with him forever and i can't imagine loving anymore as much as i love him." and my love for him will just keep growing. these seem to be alot about matt. i should talk about something else. last night, i was so stressed out. i had so many things running through my mind. i think that might have contributed to why i couldn't sleep. anyway, i need to go do some stuff. bye!

yeah yeah yeah!

you probably wouldn't get the title. unless you're matt. and he probably doesn't even remember. oh well. so i am sick. and it sucks. but i stayed home from school today. and i have my first driver's ed meeting tonight. with abby m. it should be super exciting. except maybe not. if you gusy didn't already know, i'm in love. i love him. he is seriously my rock. his words make me feel a million times better and when his arms envelope me, thats all i feel. and its amazing. because i've never felt this way before. i haven't even been close. he is my first love. and i wouldn't trade this for anything. he knows how to make me smile when i don't want to. he is so understanding. i don't know if anyone else would be able to put up with me. he gets that i have flaws and i know he does too. but its fun with flaws. even if he makes me fall (literally and figuratively), he is the love of my life. and i couldn't see living my life any other way. we are having spagetti tonight! i'm stoked. you should be too. although i'm not sure why yet. four days!!! til what you ask? :) matt's birthday. you know that guy i was talking about up there. yupp. that's him. and i already have two of his gifts. and he doesn't know what they are. and we are going to keep it that way. :) and he has a third one too. i can't wait to give him his gifts. anyway, i'm going to go. bye!